10 November 2026

30 Cheshvan, 5787/Tuesday
5:32am@CrimsonHome

Here and Now:

I had a good long sleep after prayer with Wendell last night, I woke up 4am but I went back to sleep because I still enjoyed the sleep but I don't like having  dreams, from 8 to 4 I didn'thave dreams but after an hour of extra sleep I dreamt of the worship team and the church. 

SOAP
Scriptures
Torah Parshat Toldot, 3rd Portion (Bereshit (Genesis) 26:13-26:22)

Genesis 26:13-22 New King James Version
13 The man began to prosper, and continued prospering until he became very prosperous; 14 for he had possessions of flocks and possessions of herds and a great number of servants. So the Philistines envied him. 15 Now the Philistines had stopped up all the wells which his father’s servants had dug in the days of Abraham his father, and they had filled them with earth. 16 And Abimelech said to Isaac, “Go away from us, for you are much mightier than we.”
17 Then Isaac departed from there and [a]pitched his tent in the Valley of Gerar, and dwelt there. 18 And Isaac dug again the wells of water which they had dug in the days of Abraham his father, for the Philistines had stopped them up after the death of Abraham. He called them by the names which his father had called them.
19 Also Isaac’s servants dug in the valley, and found a well of running water there. 20 But the herdsmen of Gerar quarreled with Isaac’s herdsmen, saying, “The water is ours.” So he called the name of the well [b]Esek, because they quarreled with him. 21 Then they dug another well, and they quarreled over that one also. So he called its name [c]Sitnah. 22 And he moved from there and dug another well, and they did not quarrel over it. So he called its name [d]Rehoboth, because he said, “For now the Lord has made room for us, and we shall be fruitful in the land.”

BIBLE in a Year

Jeremiah 39, 52; Luke 22:1-23

Jeremiah 39
Jeremiah Goes Free
11 Now Nebuchadnezzar king of Babylon gave charge concerning Jeremiah to Nebuzaradan the captain of the guard, saying, 12 “Take him and look after him, and do him no harm; but do to him just as he says to you.” 13 So Nebuzaradan the captain of the guard sent Nebushasban, Rabsaris, Nergal-Sharezer, Rabmag, and all the king of Babylon’s chief officers; 14 then they sent someone to take Jeremiah from the court of the prison, and committed him to Gedaliah the son of Ahikam, the son of Shaphan, that he should take him home. So he dwelt among the people.
15 Meanwhile the word of the Lord had come to Jeremiah while he was shut up in the court of the prison, saying, 16 “Go and speak to Ebed-Melech the Ethiopian, saying, ‘Thus says the Lord of hosts, the God of Israel: “Behold, I will bring My words upon this city for adversity and not for good, and they shall be performed in that day before you. 17 But I will deliver you in that day,” says the Lord, “and you shall not be given into the hand of the men of whom you are afraid. 18 For I will surely deliver you, and you shall not fall by the sword; but your life shall be as a prize to you, because you have put your trust in Me,” says the Lord.’ ”

Jeremiah 52
Jehoiachin Released from Prison
31 Now it came to pass in the thirty-seventh year of the captivity of Jehoiachin king of Judah, in the twelfth month, on the twenty-fifth day of the month, that [g]Evil-Merodach king of Babylon, in the first year of his reign, lifted[h] up the head of Jehoiachin king of Judah and brought him out of prison. 32 And he spoke kindly to him and gave him a more prominent seat than those of the kings who were with him in Babylon. 33 So [i]Jehoiachin changed from his prison garments, and he ate bread regularly before the king all the days of his life. 34 And as for his provisions, there was a regular ration given him by the king of Babylon, a portion for each day until the day of his death, all the days of his life.

Luke 22:1-23 New King James Version
The Plot to Kill Jesus
1 Now the Feast of Unleavened Bread drew near, which is called Passover. 2 And the chief priests and the scribes sought how they might kill Him, for they feared the people.
3 Then Satan entered Judas, surnamed Iscariot, who was numbered among the twelve. 4 So he went his way and conferred with the chief priests and captains, how he might betray Him to them. 5 And they were glad, and agreed to give him money. 6 So he promised and sought opportunity to betray Him to them in the absence of the multitude.
Jesus and His Disciples Prepare the Passover
7 Then came the Day of Unleavened Bread, when the Passover must be [a]killed. 8 And He sent Peter and John, saying, “Go and prepare the Passover for us, that we may eat.”
9 So they said to Him, “Where do You want us to prepare?”
10 And He said to them, “Behold, when you have entered the city, a man will meet you carrying a pitcher of water; follow him into the house which he enters. 11 Then you shall say to the master of the house, ‘The Teacher says to you, “Where is the guest room where I may eat the Passover with My disciples?” ’ 12 Then he will show you a large, furnished upper room; there make ready.”
13 So they went and found it just as He had said to them, and they prepared the Passover.
Jesus Institutes the Lord’s Supper
14 When the hour had come, He sat down, and the [b]twelve apostles with Him. 15 Then He said to them, “With fervent desire I have desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer; 16 for I say to you, I will no longer eat of it until it is fulfilled in the kingdom of God.”
17 Then He took the cup, and gave thanks, and said, “Take this and divide it among yourselves; 18 for I say to you, [c]I will not drink of the fruit of the vine until the kingdom of God comes.”
19 And He took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, “This is My body which is given for you; do this in remembrance of Me.”
20 Likewise He also took the cup after supper, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in My blood, which is shed for you. 21 But behold, the hand of My betrayer is with Me on the table. 22 And truly the Son of Man goes as it has been determined, but woe to that man by whom He is betrayed!”
23 Then they began to question among themselves, which of them it was who would do this thing.

Observation

In Genesis, when people around a favored blessed chosen man of GOD feels intimidated by Isaac, they ask him to leave their terrirotry for fear that Isaac might subdue them, but it wasn't Isaac's intention to subdue them or conques them so he leaves and goes to Gerar and settles there, he digs wells which always become a dispute until he dug a well that no one disputed anymore calling it Rehovot. 

Jeremiah, this prophet is such a poor prophet who suffered imprisonment, and hostility from his own people, I think he is pitiful because all his life he suffered without a home to call his own, he went from 1 prison to another but GOD promised Jeremiah his life, nobody could kill him in a time of war.

GOD was kind to Jehoichim, the king of Judah who let him eat with at the King's table all his life.

In Luke, JESUS is the greatest man who suffered in all the ages because of HIS love for us, HIS desires to eat passover with HIS disciples before HE suffered let me see how much HE loves HIS creation that HE is making a way for them to saved, HE did it for all of us. 

Application

I want to think myself as Isaac who is digging wells,  the way I am asking GOD for a husband, it's like me digging into the Spirit of GOD'S Kingdom and seeking whatever I NEED from HIM, but I have not found the right well, to call mine, although I feel like an Isaac, driven away from my own home in Lahug, I know that wherever GOD sends me, HE is with me and HE will never leave me but will continue to bless me. 

I wonder how Jeremiah suffered a lifetime of war  because he was born in that area were Jerusalem is besieged and conquered and I think if I was in his place, I would have died early, because there was nothing but destruction and desolation. GOD knows I cannot survive such hostility. 

I don't want to suffer but suffering is something, followers of CHRIST do go through in this life on earth, but in all our suffering as we endure, GOD will grant us our rewards, not just here on this earth but also in heaven. I am afraid of trials and tribulations, but here I am suffering troubles in the business and clinging to GOD with all my strength because I have no ONE else to lean on, GOD is my strength, my very present help in trouble, GOD is my portion, and I am praying HE provide me with a praying partner - a husband who will not only pray for me but take care of me.

Prayers
Dear Father God, holy are you, O Lord God. Holy is your name. Holy are you, King of Glory. You are strong and mighty, and you are mighty to save. Lord, it's difficult for me not to see you, not to touch you, but by my spirit and in the truth, I abide in you, O God. But Lord, I really want to experience you in a physical way through a husband who loves you, who would pray with me, who would take care of me. Lord, I'm clinging to you because I'm even confused with my own life. I don't know. I really don't know what to do every day. Every day, I'm just relying on you. And I just want to thank you so much for Kuya Jun, Ma'am Lagman, who showed up right away when I needed them. Thank you, Lord. Thank you, Lord. Thank you so much, Lord, for the people who have helped me. Ate Leni, Ate Letty, Rose, Jafrael, such a blessing to me. Lord, I pray, Lord, for Vilma. I don't feel that she's so useful. And I have no peace with her, so I pray, Father, that you will just make a way, Lord God. Though we need her, Lord, I don't know. I'm just laying down my thoughts to you because I really don't know what to do. My confidence is in you, God. If you give me bold confidence, I am confident. If you make me shrink, I will shrink. Lord, it's you. Who am I trusting? Only you, God. And it's been 16 years that I came home from London. I still don't know where to turn, what to do. I still don't know what to do with my life. Because, Lord, I let you lead it, and I just want to follow you. Every day, Lord God, just want to follow you. So I'm going to continue to pray that you make, Lord, Sidro, Ryan Gore, Lord, change of their hearts, that they will experience your goodness and your love, and they will follow you all the rest of their lives. I pray, God, that your will be done, Lord, in Marides, Lord, where you have called me to lead. I don't know what to do. Lord, forgive me. I did not listen. I was not sensitive enough to the Holy Spirit regarding Rosalia. I don't know, Lord, what went wrong. And I'm so sorry, God. I'm so sorry that I have failed to be sensitive to you. I have fallen short of your glory. Forgive me, Father. But I pray, Lord God, that you would just make things up for me. Make things up for me, Lord Jesus. Help me, Lord Jesus. Live my life for you, O God. Help me, O King of Israel. Take care of me, O Lord God. Do not allow me to be defeated, because I am depending on you. Lord, I not only have work trouble, there's church trouble, and I am praying, Lord God, that you will do something. I don't even want to be involved in church work anymore because of the issues in church. So discouraging, God. There's problem everywhere. Cannot deal with every problem. I cannot deal, Lord, my heart is weakened every time I face problems. But Lord, I will cling to you. With all my mind, with all my heart, I cling to you, Father God. I ask you, Jesus, to help me. Help me. Help me. Help me, Father God. Continue to be with me. Speak to me. Make me confident. Make me joyful in you. I ask you, Father God, take care of me and all that I do. Take care of me, Father God. Lead me in the way everlasting. Lead me, Father God. Lead me, Lord, until you come for me, I meet you in the clouds. Please, God. Please, God, I don't know what to do with my life. I want you to take full control of me. Take full control, oh, God. Take full control of my thoughts, of my entire being. Take full control, Lord God. Thank you for the sleep that you gave me last night. But Lord, I'm so lost. I don't know what to do, Lord God. I cannot see any future. I want to have a husband, but I don't know when you are giving me a husband, if I am even capable to be a wife. I have no confidence, Lord. I have no confidence. But I am clinging to you. You are my strength. You are my confidence. Please, God, fill me with the spirit, with the Holy Spirit, so that I will not be afraid, so that I will not be doubtful, so that you will take, please, Father God, take away all my worries, all my fears. I had a dream at 4:00 a.m. I dreamt of the worship team, the church, Teacher Liz. I don't like dreaming about these things because it means these things are disturbing my heart. Lord, if it's disturbing you, then it's also disturbing me, and I want to work with you. So I will continue to pray, and I will continue to ask you, Father God, to do something in the church, to deal with, Lord God, the evil that is destroying our church, that you will defeat, Lord, the attacks of the enemy against our church, causing division, disunity. Father God, don't allow your body to be divided, to be lacking of love. Fill us with love. Fill us with your spirit. Fill us with your truth. Lord, we're going into tribulation, and we are hard, and we are having a hard time already. So much trouble is going on, O God. But you, O Lord, are my safe place. You are my rock, and so I ask you, God, to keep speaking to me, leading me, comforting me, guiding me. I don't know what's going on with me, God. I feel scared all the time. But you are my hope, and you are my redeemer, and you are my refuge, and so I take refuge in you. God, even today, I don't know what to do. Even today, Lord God, if I'm talking to these people online, am I doing the right thing? If I am not, Lord God, help me. Quicken my spirit. Let me cut them off. Let me not be wild by the enemy's traps. Let me be wise, oh God. Give me wisdom, Father God. Don't allow me to be fooled. Let me always seek you. Let me always know, Lord, your will for my life. Help me to always follow you. Take care of me, God. This is what I pray. Take care of my family. Take care of my home. Take care of everybody, oh God. Take care of me. Lord God, I am lost. I am so lost, and I want to thank you for my family. Thank you, Lord, for the love of Denise, Kim, our in-laws, Hannah. Thank you, Lord God. Bless them, Lord. Bless them. They continue to love our family. Let them continue, Lord, to be strong in you. Let your grace, Lord God, be poured upon our lives. Oh, Lord God, thank you that she's always encouraging me to do something, to run, to be pretty. Thank you, God. Bless Denise. I pray, God, that I will do what you are telling me through her. Help me, Lord. Give me the spirit to do it, Lord. I don't know, Lord. I feel my body is dragging me down. It's like I need your Holy Spirit to fill me. I need your Holy Spirit to help me live my life that is worthy of the calling and the purpose that you have for me, God. Please fill me, God. Please fill me, Jesus. I don't know how to live, don't know how to think. Lord God, I am nothing. I am useless without you. Remember, Lord God, remember me. Remember me. Take care of me. Don't leave me like this, Lord God, that I am unsure of myself, that I don't know what to do. But, Lord, fill me with the spirit of truth, with the spirit of power, with a sound mind, and of your love. Fill me, Jesus, Holy Spirit. Let your love flow through me. Let your love, oh God, enable me to do what you want me to do, Father God. Help me to continue to surrender to you, to know your will, Jesus. Help me, God. Oh, Lord, continue to heal. Heal everybody. Heal Auntie Bibi. Heal my father from cough Heal my mother and father from traumas and pain. Heal, oh God, Liam Ipi, the son of Wilson. Heal, Father God, those who are sick, those who are troubled in their heart and spirit. God will, who see joy. Heal, Lord God. And I pray that your presence, Lord, will fall upon the Philippines, fall upon my city, fall upon me, fall upon everything that I do. Fall upon us, God. Father, I am so lost without you. I am so lost even today. I don't know what to do. I'm not confident, Lord, but I will trust in you. I will cling to you. Please, God, lead me. Lead and take my hand and lead me in the way I should go, Father. Let your good and perfect will be done, Father. Let the husband you have promised me come to me, Father. Let the husband you have promised me give me courage, Father, and confidence, Father. Let this husband, Lord God, contact me, Lord God. Let him find me, Lord God. Help me, Jesus. I pray that you would bring this man to me. I don't know if that is a solution to my confusion, but you are my solution, God. Jesus, you are my king. You are the hope that I have in my heart, the reason why I live, the reason for me waking up. Lord God, if not for you, I don't know what I'm going to do. Lord, I cling to you, God, and I pray that people will cling to you just as I cling to you, that people will live for you. Lord God, I ask this, working for me, that all will fear you, that all will acknowledge you, that all will bow to you. Father God, I need you so much. I need you, Jesus. Let your kingdom come, let your will be done, Jesus. Oh, Lord, I lost my head coverings. Please give me new head coverings, God. Please heal our church, Father God. Please, God, I'm asking you to help me live each day. Help me, God. Help me, God. Thank you, Jesus. All glory, all honor, all power belongs to you. In the name of Yeshua, I pray. Amen. Amen