28 October 2026

17 Cheshvan, 5787/Wednesday
5:33am@LahugHome


Here and Now
I came to Lahug to bring things to my parents, it's my sister's birthday today, I hoped I would sleep well in the guest room, I did praise GOD but I still had disturbing dreams, I wish there was a true prophet of GOD who could minister to me and remove all those spirits in our house or from me, because I have been feeling anxious lately, especially that I heard my bestfriends parents all getting sick, depressed and I am fearing the day my own parents get sick, but GOD had  always been with me everytime there was a crisis in my home,  I felt him, HE strengthened me but on regular days I am anxious and afraid of the next trial that's going to come upon my home, I feel weak especially after I had just recovered from a flu that I never expected to last a week, the times have changed.

SOAP
Scriptures
Torah
Parshat Vayeira, 4th Portion (Bereshit (Genesis) 19:21-21:4)

Genesis 19 New King James Version
21 And he said to him, “See, I have favored you concerning this thing also, in that I will not overthrow this city for which you have spoken. 22 Hurry, escape there. For I cannot do anything until you arrive there.”
Therefore the name of the city was called [a]Zoar.
23 The sun had risen upon the earth when Lot entered Zoar. 24 Then the Lord rained brimstone and fire on Sodom and Gomorrah, from the Lord out of the heavens. 25 So He [b]overthrew those cities, all the plain, all the inhabitants of the cities, and what grew on the ground.
26 But his wife looked back behind him, and she became a pillar of salt.
27 And Abraham went early in the morning to the place where he had stood before the Lord. 28 Then he looked toward Sodom and Gomorrah, and toward all the land of the plain; and he saw, and behold, the smoke of the land which went up like the smoke of a furnace. 29 And it came to pass, when God destroyed the cities of the plain, that God remembered Abraham, and sent Lot out of the midst of the overthrow, when He overthrew the cities in which Lot had dwelt.
The Descendants of Lot
30 Then Lot went up out of Zoar and dwelt in the mountains, and his two daughters were with him; for he was afraid to dwell in Zoar. And he and his two daughters dwelt in a cave. 31 Now the firstborn said to the younger, “Our father is old, and there is no man on the earth to come in to us as is the custom of all the earth. 32 Come, let us make our father drink wine, and we will lie with him, that we may preserve the [c]lineage of our father.” 33 So they made their father drink wine that night. And the firstborn went in and lay with her father, and he did not know when she lay down or when she arose.
34 It happened on the next day that the firstborn said to the younger, “Indeed I lay with my father last night; let us make him drink wine tonight also, and you go in and lie with him, that we may preserve the [d]lineage of our father.” 35 Then they made their father drink wine that night also. And the younger arose and lay with him, and he did not know when she lay down or when she arose.
36 Thus both the daughters of Lot were with child by their father. 37 The firstborn bore a son and called his name Moab; he is the father of the Moabites to this day. 38 And the younger, she also bore a son and called his name Ben-Ammi; he is the father of the people of Ammon to this day.
Genesis 20
Abraham and Abimelech
1 And Abraham journeyed from there to the South, and dwelt between Kadesh and Shur, and stayed in Gerar. 2 Now Abraham said of Sarah his wife, “She is my sister.” And Abimelech king of Gerar sent and took Sarah.
3 But God came to Abimelech in a dream by night, and said to him, “Indeed you are a dead man because of the woman whom you have taken, for she is [e]a man’s wife.”
4 But Abimelech had not come near her; and he said, “Lord, will You slay a righteous nation also? 5 Did he not say to me, ‘She is my sister’? And she, even she herself said, ‘He is my brother.’ In the [f]integrity of my heart and innocence of my hands I have done this.”
6 And God said to him in a dream, “Yes, I know that you did this in the integrity of your heart. For I also withheld you from sinning against Me; therefore I did not let you touch her. 7 Now therefore, restore the man’s wife; for he is a prophet, and he will pray for you and you shall live. But if you do not restore her, know that you shall surely die, you and all who are yours.”
8 So Abimelech rose early in the morning, called all his servants, and told all these things in their hearing; and the men were very much afraid. 9 And Abimelech called Abraham and said to him, “What have you done to us? How have I [g]offended you, that you have brought on me and on my kingdom a great sin? You have done deeds to me that ought not to be done.” 10 Then Abimelech said to Abraham, “What did you have in view, that you have done this thing?”
11 And Abraham said, “Because I thought, surely the fear of God is not in this place; and they will kill me on account of my wife. 12 But indeed she is truly my sister. She is the daughter of my father, but not the daughter of my mother; and she became my wife. 13 And it came to pass, when God caused me to wander from my father’s house, that I said to her, ‘This is your kindness that you should do for me: in every place, wherever we go, say of me, “He is my brother.” ’ ”
14 Then Abimelech took sheep, oxen, and male and female servants, and gave them to Abraham; and he restored Sarah his wife to him. 15 And Abimelech said, “See, my land is before you; dwell where it pleases you.” 16 Then to Sarah he said, “Behold, I have given your brother a thousand pieces of silver; indeed this [h]vindicates you before all who are with you and before everybody.” Thus she was [i]rebuked.
17 So Abraham prayed to God; and God healed Abimelech, his wife, and his female servants. Then they bore children; 18 for the Lord had closed up all the wombs of the house of Abimelech because of Sarah, Abraham’s wife.
Genesis 21
Isaac Is Born
1 And the Lord visited Sarah as He had said, and the Lord did for Sarah as He had spoken. 2 For Sarah conceived and bore Abraham a son in his old age, at the set time of which God had spoken to him. 3 And Abraham called the name of his son who was born to him—whom Sarah bore to him—Isaac.[j] 4 Then Abraham circumcised his son Isaac when he was eight days old, as God had commanded him.

Observation
Lot's daughters became sick in their minds probably because of the influence in Sodom and Gomorrah, that they would defile their bodies just to have children just to have lineage, the effects of the immorality of that place had changed their moral standards.
Abraham was not willing to die for Sarah his wife that is why he made a lie that endagers her so that she could live, but GOD was with Abraham so that HE would intervene in a foreign ruler's dreams to warn him and so that he could do what is right, and and probably for the same reason she caused Hagar to bear a child for them, she was willing to be a Hagar because she forced her own maid to sleep with Abraham and because of that event of being in the position of Hagar in Abimelech's  household, she was rebuked  for what she did to Hagar.
And GOD had mercy on Sarah so that GOD came to her and fulfilled what HE had promised them, to have child in a very impossible situation where only GOD could only be glorified.

BIBLE in a  Year
Ezekiel 43-44; Luke 14:25-35; Luke15:1-10; Psalm 124

Luke 14:25-35 New King James Version
Leaving All to Follow Christ
25 Now great multitudes went with Him. And He turned and said to them, 26 “If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple. 27 And whoever does not bear his cross and come after Me cannot be My disciple. 28 For which of you, intending to build a tower, does not sit down first and count the cost, whether he has enough to finish it— 29 lest, after he has laid the foundation, and is not able to finish, all who see it begin to mock him, 30 saying, ‘This man began to build and was not able to finish’? 31 Or what king, going to make war against another king, does not sit down first and consider whether he is able with ten thousand to meet him who comes against him with twenty thousand? 32 Or else, while the other is still a great way off, he sends a delegation and asks conditions of peace. 33 So likewise, whoever of you does not forsake all that he has cannot be My disciple.
Tasteless Salt Is Worthless
34 “Salt is good; but if the salt has lost its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? 35 It is neither fit for the land nor for the [a]dunghill, but men throw it out. He who has ears to hear, let him hear!”

Psalm 124 New King James Version
The Lord the Defense of His People
A Song of Ascents. Of David.
1 “If it had not been the Lord who was on our side,” Let Israel now say—
2 “If it had not been the Lord who was on our side, When men rose up against us,
3 Then they would have swallowed us alive, When their wrath was kindled against us;
4 Then the waters would have overwhelmed us, The stream would have [a]gone over our soul;
5 Then the swollen waters Would have [b]gone over our soul.”
6 Blessed be the Lord, Who has not given us as prey to their teeth.
7 Our soul has escaped as a bird from the snare of the [c]fowlers;
The snare is broken, and we have escaped.
8 Our help is in the name of the Lord, Who made heaven and earth.

Observation
Ezekiel is about the Prophet seeing the glory of GOD enter the east gate of HIS Sanctuary returning to it's dwelling place after judgement and restoration and how it departs when HIS Sanctuary is defiled.
God requires holiness and faithfulness from those who serve Him. Those who remain loyal are honored with greater responsibility.
Luke 14 is somehow GOD explaining the contrast of being comfortable in the broken and evil world we live in, it's system, and it's nature, and the person who is not content to be here would go to the extreme of hating the world because they are satisfied, content or comfortable living in the systems of the world.
Psalm 124 the Psalm of escape from the grips of death in the enemies hands, a  Psalm of gratitude and recognition that GOD HIMSELF rescues HIS people if not, they die in captivity.

Application
I wrote only the verses in Luke and Psalms, scriptures that spoke to me today, it's really hating my life on earth, really I hate it, not becuase I'm not grateful for the many blessings that GOD has given me, I hate it because I live in a broken world, I hate it because I want to be with JESUS where HE is, I know HE is with me, but it's not enough and so if I am in a position of hating my own life, it means I don't love this world, but I don't know how much longer I can endure so many problems, so many heartaches, I am already anxious, and fearing of what could go wrong in the future, my parents getting sick, Cobe and my dogs getting sick, and I have to carry them to the hospital. I am anxious because my bestfriends parents are both sick, one is depressed because she can't walk anymore, one is in the ER because of his heart and lung problem. I am anxious and scared of emergencies happening, people I have to deal with at the workplace, so many things that I am concerned about. I am too weak to be in this world that is why Psalm 124 is really an encouraging Psalm that reminds me that GOD is at work, HE is the ONE who rescues me from the grips of  evil  because I cannot escape on my own, GOD's ways are higher than mine and HE is perfect, HE is faithful, HE will never leave me on my own, HE always rescues me and my people even though we are blind to the grips of evil. My HELP is in YESHUA - the Name of 
Adonai, maker of heaven and earth. 

Prayers

Oh, Father God, Holy One, Great I Am, Sovereign God and King, you are indeed faithful and true. Thank you, Lord, for your love, for your faithfulness, for your perfection. Oh, Father, forgive us for the many times I have failed you. I have been complacent. I have been tired and weary. Forgive me, Lord. If I was not faithful, forgive me. When I chose to give up easily, forgive me, God, forgive me. When I did not love when you have called me to love, when I have disobeyed you, when you have called me to do something, and I did not do it. Lord, I want you to help me. I want to thank you because you rescued me, in spite of what I am. You rescued me, my family, my company, from the grips of evil therein. I pray that you deal with Rosalia Ramos today, in Jesus' name. I pray that you deal with everyone who has stolen from us, Isidro Ipil, Ryan James Gore, all and everyone, oh God, who have sinned against Marides. I pray, Father, that you deal with them. I pray, Father, that you will find a way, Lord God, that everything will be restored to us because of what the enemy has stolen from us. Thank you, Father. All these concerns, Lord, in my heart in the workplace, I know that you're solving them. As I continue to ask you, Lord, please help me to manage this business, to be a good steward. Help me, help my brother, help my parents, God, because we are so weak and imperfect, and we don't know what to do, God. Everything, I believe, it's like hanging on a thread. I'm so scared, God. I am anxious and I am scared of anything that could go wrong. But, Lord, I will cling to you because you have helped me ever since. Even though I did not know what help I needed, you helped me. You were there for me. You were always guiding me, and you rescued me, Lord. You rescued us even recently. Help me to remember how you rescued us. Help me to recall the things of the past and what you have done for us, God, so that I will not be anxious, so that I will continually trust you and keep my eyes focused and steadfast on you, Jesus. Lord, listen, dear Lord. I'm having a hard time, actually. I'm having a hard time just navigating life. I'm just so anxious of many things, and I know it's not your will for me to be anxious, so help me, Lord, to keep trusting you. And Lord, even, Lord, I am praying, Lord, for my best friend's parents who are now in the hospital. One is at home but cannot walk. He's sick. God, I pray, Lord, that you'd give her a new purpose, Auntie Bibi, because she cannot walk. I pray, God, that she will just surrender her life to you and not be filled with desperation, with depression. I pray, Lord God, that you give her a new purpose, that she will see life differently, even though, Lord, these things happen to her. Lord, I'm praying for her healing. Heal her knees, God. Help her to walk once again. And I pray for Uncle Ben right now in the hospital. Heal him, Father God. Let him to walk once again. Let him to breathe easy once again. Heal us, Lord, and help us to look to you, Lord God, because life is so fragile. And I just want everybody to focus on you, to live for you, because I know, Lord, that we need to eat to survive, and we have to work to survive. But you, oh God, you are the one who provides everything for us. Just as you have provided Abraham and his family, and they never lacked, Lord, you provide for us. You provide for us, Lord, the way, our food, our sustenance. Lord, help us, God. I am asking you, help us, Jesus. Thank you, Lord, that you have kept my parents healthy, my dogs healthy. Lord, please continue to keep us healthy. I don't know how long this world is going to last, but I really wish it's not going to last so long anymore, God. I really want you to come now, Lord Jesus. Lord, I'm just having a hard time. I'm just having such a hard time with my heart and my mind, and I'm just scared every day. I'm scared. I'm anxious. There's so many things to worry about. But Lord, you said do not be anxious. Do not worry. For each day has its own troubles. Lord God, help me to cling to your word. Help me to face each day with its own troubles. Help me, God, to continue to trust you, to take care of me and my family and everything that I am responsible for. Help me, God, and I pray a blessing even, Lord. Help me. I pray a blessing even for my sister who celebrates her birthday today. Pray a blessing, Lord God, for my parents' anniversary. I pray a blessing for Dean's birthday, for their wedding anniversary. Everyone, Lord God, celebrated in this home. I pray, Lord God, that everyone, even Derek, will learn to take responsibility and be an adult. Lord God. Oh, Lord, I have so many things, God. I don't know what to do. What system, Lord? Should I get a system? Lord, no. I want to thank you for all the people you have sent my way to help me with BIR. Help me, Lord, with BIR. There are so many problems, my Lord. I don't know what to do. There are so many things that's just making me scared, God. Just making me scared, Jesus. I pray that you would just stand in my heart. Help me, Lord, to cling to you. Help me, Lord. I'm not strong enough, God. I'm not strong enough. You are my strength, God. I am not pretending to be strong. I'm scared, God. Please comfort me. Please make me unafraid and courageous. Bold, Lord God. Help me to be bold. Help me to not be afraid. I pray for healing, even for Jun Singco. Healing, Lord God, for Joel's wife. Oh, Lord God, have mercy. Have mercy, Jesus. Healing for Chigrace, Issa, Kim, David. Heal us, Lord. Oh, my God, I'm so scared. I'm scared, God. I'm scared, God, but you are my strength. Please, God, calm me down. Calm me down, God. Please, Jesus, help me. Help me. Guide me. Maneuver my life for me, because I cannot. I don't know what to do. Help me to take on responsibilities. Help me to be loyal to you always. And I pray, Lord God, if you're going to delay, if you're going to really come on 2033, it's a long wait. It's such a long wait, God, and I need somebody. I need a husband. Lord, though you are my husband, I need a physical husband, too. Someone who is strongly anchored in you. Lord, I want to thank you for this man. I don't know when he is coming, but I know, Lord God, that because you have promised me. I remember the words that you promised me, that you're going to give me a husband. I remember, Lord, your words in Isaiah 34, verse 16. None will lack her mate. Because you will send this mate to me. Lord, I cling to your word, cling to your promise. Your word, especially even in Genesis, God, where you promised Abraham and Sarah that they will have children. And indeed, you have given them children. Indeed, God, you have given them their heart's desire because you are faithful, God. I remember, Lord God, what you have promised to them, and I thank you, Lord God, that according to your promise, it will be done. And I claim your promises in my life, Father God. I want to have faith, Lord God, and I believe that you're giving them to me not to give me false hope, but so that I will have a hope and a future, Lord God, because this is your promise in Jeremiah 29:11. Plans to give me hope and a future. You know the plans you have for me, God, and I cling, Lord, to your faithfulness. I cling, Lord, to your loving kindness. I cling, Lord, to your love. Though I am not deserving, God. Not deserving of anything. I'm not deserving. But Lord, because of your grace, I receive everything. I receive everything, God, and I praise you, and I thank you, Lord God, for the plans that you have for me that are good, and purposeful. Giving me a hope and a future. God, thank you for my Isaac. I have waited so long for him. This Isaac will carry me through in the times of tribulations. We will carry each other until we rest. We find rest when you meet us in the air and take us home, Jesus. When you bring Jesus back to us. Father, I pray that my husband and I, we will cling to you with all of our hearts, with all of our might. Lord, we will not lose hope. We will always pray together. We will always see your hand at work. Lord, we want to see, I want to see your hand at work, so that I will not be scared. I see your hand at work, Lord. I did not even know I was failing you. I did not even know my sin, and I was complacent at work. God, I am very weak. Help me, Lord. Help me, God. Help me, Jesus. Give me strength to face today. Lord, I don't know what to do, but, Lord, direct my paths. Give me strength to do everything that I need to do. Thank you, Lord, for the good night's sleep. Thank you for the long rest that I enjoyed in my parents' house. Thank you, God. But those dreams are wrong. I pray that you remove, Lord, whatever spirit that is trying to enter my dreams, that you punish the wicked. Deal with those, Lord God, that are trying to disturb me. Please, God, I pray. Pray healing. Healing, God, healing. Please, God, not leave me on my own. Please take care of me. Take care of everybody, of all that I have prayed for. Heal everybody, Lord, even my husband. Bring him to me. Bring us together, Lord, that I will not be alone, that I will hold my part, my husband's hand, and together we will pray, and we will see you at work, and we will rejoice over your goodness and your loving kindness and your faithfulness because you will always show us, Lord, your glory, your hand at work, God. Bless, Lord, everyone in the workplace, especially Jeff. Give her good health. Help her to be strong, to be mentally active, and just bless her, Lord, with your love, with your loving kindness. Lord, everyone in the workplace, Letty, Lenny, Mary Rose, Elsie, even Wilma, deal with her rebellious heart. Deal with Richard. Everyone, Lord God, who is not faithful to you. I pray that you deal with everyone. And I pray, Lord, that you continue to take care of me, take care of everything that I do. Take care of your church. Bless the pastors, Timmy, Grace, Bernie, Marlin, and in the name of JESUS KING of Kings and LORD of Lords! Amen!


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