20 September 2026

9 Tishrei / Sunday
@Crimson Watchtower

Here and Now:

I woke up from a good sleep and praying in between the nightwatches, I did dream of blue water going out of my toilet drainage and the tub, I don't know why and that the empty lot in Crimson across me is being worked out. I have already prepared to go to Lahug today but come back to Crimson in the late afternoon to be with JESUS on YOM KIPPUR

SOAP

Scriptures

Torah
Parshat Vezot Hab'rachah, 1st Portion (Devarim (Deuteronomy) 33:1-33:7)
7 And this he said of Judah:
“Hear, Lord, the voice of Judah, And bring him to his people;
Let his hands be sufficient for him, And may You be a help against his enemies.”

Jeremiah 8
The Prophet Mourns for the People
18 I would comfort myself in sorrow; My heart is faint in me.
19 Listen! The voice, The cry of the daughter of my people From a far country:
“Is not the Lord in Zion? Is not her King in her?”
“Why have they provoked Me to anger With their carved images— With foreign idols?”
20 “The harvest is past, The summer is ended, And we are not saved!”
21 For the hurt of the daughter of my people I am hurt. I am mourning;
Astonishment has taken hold of me.
22 Is there no balm in Gilead, Is there no physician there?
Why then is there no recovery For the health of the daughter of my people?

2 Timothy 6
7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
Not Ashamed of the Gospel
8 Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me His prisoner, but share with me in the sufferings for the gospel according to the power of God, 9 who has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began, 10 but has now been revealed by the appearing of our Savior Jesus Christ, who has abolished death and brought life and immortality to light through the gospel, 11 to which I was appointed a preacher, an apostle, and a teacher [c]of the Gentiles. 12 For this reason I also suffer these things; nevertheless I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day.

Proverbs 22 
29 Do you see a man who [h]excels in his work? He will stand before kings;
He will not stand before [i]unknown men.

Observation

The people of Israel have been punished with hurt because they did not make GOD their KING but have installed idols to worship as their god, even though Israel has been sent with many prophets, their hearts always go astray because they want to see a god, and the only way they can see a god is by making idols so that they can see this god tangibly. I admit how hard it is to just imagine GOD loving me, that's why I am always asking GOD for a representation of HIS love  for me through a human husband, because GOD is my HUSBAND AND KING but it is difficult to just imagine HIM that way, that's why I ask for a husband but I hope and pray that this husband will not become like an idol to me just as Israel was led astray by making idols to worship than worship the invisible GOD. GOD had hurt them by deserting them when they deserted HIM.

Application

I have also been hurt when I prayed for asian men who did not resemble the Arab man GOD shown me in an open vision in the past. I was hurt because they never loved me back and I spend time praying and believing they could be the one so that today if GOD will change HIS mind about the man HE has shown me, I would be too hurt to believe GOD anymore. But will never change HIS mind because what HE has with me is unbreakable as a covenant and that is what I hold onto today, HIS unchanging mind.

Today this WORD in Jeremiah 8:19-21 resonated with me if GOD were to change HIS mind again regarding the man I will marry. HE had shown me already an arab man dark in complexion like Mosab, black beard, black hair on Feb 6, 2019and I will cling to it this time, I will not let go. The past revelations  of asian husbands had become like an Ishmael to me, and I praise GOD that none of them even liked me  back, because GOD really prevented me from sinning against HIM greatly just as Abraham and Sarah did when they took up Hagar to produce the promise of GOD. 

Prayers

Dear FATHER,

GREAT ARE YOU O LORD KING OF KINGS and LORD OF LORDS, thank YOU for this day that YOU have made that I am content to be single and not yet with anyone because I have peace living and being all alone in Crimson, I have peace not asking YOU if YOU had changed YOUR mind because YOUR WORD says YOU don't and I CLING to who YOU ARE, I cling to YOUR loving kindness and faithfulness  to me. I have no where else to go O GOD MY FATHER, please take care of me. I need YOU so much to guide me especially through this time of waiting... Please GOD do not allow me to be distracted by anyone or anything anymore, just help me to keep waiting on YOUR with a steadfast  heart and joy knowing YOU are going to do great things for me, I am so dependent on YOU O GOD so help me, live through me, fill me and my husband the man YOU have chosen with YOUR HOLY SPIRIT, bring us to YOUR perfect will, have YOUR way in us, O GOD, THANK YOU FOR that husband, thank YOU for preparing the best for me, I will keep believing YOU GOD, please help me to wait on YOU please help me to be all that YOU want me to be. I need YOU GOD please strengthen me and keep me in the center  of YOUR perfect will for I cannot live without YOU JESUS. Please deal with my mom, all the other jezebels, Rosalia, Gerard, Wilma, Teodeliz, Pauline and make them submit to YOU, please GOD, don't forget me and the vision that YOU have given me, I carry it in my heart and I pray YOU are bringing me to my husband sooner than later. Please deal with Ciriaca because her spirit is really affecting me, help her LORD to be humble, and continue to deal with Dean and Denesse, Deric and everyone around me, I know everyday that YOU make me wait, YOU are dealing with me and I bow  my head low to YOU because in waiting, YOU really do hurt me sometimes I FEEL that I am cursed  and hated by  YOU BUT I know it's not true so forgive me for my faithlessness, forgive me for my pride, forgive me for every wrong I HAVE  DONE, for my complacency, forgive me GOD. Have YOUR way in mylife KING JESUS, YOU ARE MY KING.

IN YESHUA HAMASHIACH, AMEN!